wanting something unwanted

ok im just going to write what comes to my head and not bother about punctuation really. im closing my eyes and just writing. just getting it all out. it works better this way.
this week ive been really moody and i dont know why. maybe its because im at school. mr. galloway told me that i wasnt really serious enough to work at the hospital but he was goin to give me a chance anyways. he told me that the red cross people i worked wit didnt like what i did with the proram. backstabbers. i told them i wasnt giong to be there for the last bit and i worked really hard. stupid red cross people twofaced anal dwelling ...ARGH. guess ill try to act my age but then im reminded of patchh adams who was a doctor but not very serious. he was a fantastic person and didnt let anyone tell him who he should be. so im going to stay the same way im not going to change because someone else is offended by the way i laugh or my excitement at life. fools MUWAHAHAA.

ive been eating lunch by myself at school. austin apparently stopped by to see mrs lang and didnt even bother to stop by and say hi. all he had to do was text me and say hi im at the school or something. i hate men. i should be a straight feminist.

i want someone to ask me to homecoming. or to a movie or anything. m the one that always ask people to do something. come on ask me to do something ANYTHING. i know who i want to ask but ive sworn off men so unless someone asks me im not going. one of these days all im going to wish these were the only problems i hade buut for now they are big just for now.